The way you remember the past depends upon your hope for the future. And if what you see in your future has no hope, it has no potential, then you view the past that brought you to here as not very good. For myself, all of those things were ways that I built myself, that I measured up, that I… that I got self-reliance. That I learned even as a three-year-old that I see this world that is really a mess and I learned to say, this is not me. I am not the one that is messed up. It is out there.